July 27, 2006

I Never Gave My Thyroid Much Thought

Posted in health, thyroid, weight at 8:33 pm by way2much

I never gave that bowtie shaped organ much thought until I saw one search term used to get to my site. It was “choke feeling and thyroid problem”.

I already mentioned in another post that my mother thinks I may have a problem with my thyroid. But I really only dismissed it. I am already paranoid about other things. I don’t need to zone in on my thyroid too.  I have been to the doctors; they know my complaints. I feel like a whiny baby if I harp.

But today is a new day. Well it is night, so tomorrow will be the new day. I am going to call my doctor and make an appointment.  After seeing the search term used I decided to look up thyroid disease. I found this wonderful website that tells all about the thyroid – click on this link to get you there. It states that women are 7 times more likely than men to get thyroid disease. It also states that half the people with a problem are not diagnosed. That means they are walking around unaware of their problem. Or aware and just dismiss their symptoms!

The site goes on to say that people are misdiagnosed due to other instances or factors going on in their lives. When I first  had problems after my son was born, the doctors immediately did what the article said.  They told me I was new to motherhood, I was bound to be tired, I would gain weight, I would be depressed. This is normal. Of course your heart will beat faster, you are nervous about your new role, etc. When I read this, I flash-backed to that time where they poo-poohed me away.

This article also includes a link to Thyroid Disease 101. Here it mentions that the thyroid can become swollen and cause difficulty swallowing or breathing.  HMMM.  Does that sound familiar or what? I never put the two together and neither have my doctors. They just shrugged it off. I will answer these questions and hand them to the doctor. I will be armed with information when I enter into their office tomorrow. I will not be soothed or smooth-talked out of having the test done. I want answers. I need to start somewhere – and since I have some of the symptoms regarding thyroid disease, why not start there?


July 21, 2006

Tossing and Turning and Gasping for Air

Posted in health, heart, herniated disc, migraines, thyroid at 9:14 am by way2much

This blog is mainly about my struggle with losing weight.  Although, I want to also mention my other health issues as well.

My mother thinks I may have a thyroid problem. I noted that before. Therefore, I am trying to document anything and everything regarding my weight and my health.

Last night I was tossing and turning – well that is misleading. I was really pretty comfortable until it felt like my throat was closing up and I couldn’t breathe.  This has happened before and it happens in clusters – meaning over days/nights.  Most recent was the night before last. But my last cluster was probably months ago.

I am not sure what it is. Years ago, after herniating my disc and being so drugged up, I experienced this phenomenon for the first time.  I went to the doctor only because I was on the table in the physical therapists office and the technician came running over telling me I was WHITE. She asked if I was OK and I told her how I felt, like my heart had stopped beating and I couldn’t breathe.  Thank God my doctor was on the upper level of the building.  She called up and they were expecting me. They rushed me into a room and performed an EKG on me.  The nurse came in, looked at the results and a nervous look came across her face. She forced a smile and said, “I think I connected you wrong,” and rewired me. She took the test again.  Same reaction. She calls the doctor in.  He confirms the connections. He tells me he wants me to see a cardiologist. I am thinking this isn’t too good.

Jump to my cardiologist visit. He takes an EKG and proceeds to instruct me on how to set up the halter monitor I have to wear for a few days.  I am to log every feeling I have and report back to him.  After 48 hours, I hand him the monitor and my journal.  Some time later, they call and tell me I am fine.  I have a prolapsed heart rate (? – not entirely sure if i have this correct) in which my heart beats rhythmically for a certain amount of time and then it skips one beat. My heart readjusts itself, it is nothing to be concerned about, as it is “normal” for me.  WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN?

So why was I just noticing it then?  Well the relaxed state that I was in could have caused my body to become aware of everything – such as this mis-beat.  Makes sense BUT I think it may be anxiety.  I decided to stop taking the medications because I don’t want to be relaxed that much! I can’t get to sleep at night because I feel like I am going to die and everytime I am about to doze off, I choke up.

I have only had this feeling a handful of times since then.  I am going through it again. It is only at night. I have no idea what it can be, as the doctors dismissed anxiety or panic attacks.  I need to make an appointment with the doctor. But I am beginning to realize why older people are reluctant to phone for an appointment.  **When I was a child I couldn’t understand why my grandparents didn’t want to see a doctor when they were ill – didn’t they want to get better?** Now I know. If they experienced anything like I have, they would hesitate, just like I am. 

I think there is a stamp on my folder that warns “hypochondriac”. Perhaps it really says, “neurotic” or “paranoid”! I suffer from migraines (since adolescence), Cat-scans say I am fine. I have this heart problem (I thought) but EKG is “normal”. I’ve had pain for quite some time (area of herniated disc) but doctors and gynecologist could not find anything wrong with me (perhaps it was brewing from then). Now mind you my regular MD did not order tests except for blood work, it was my gynecologist that ordered a stomach sonogram (which found nothing). My MD kept referring me back to GYN. She got pissed because if I was a male, they would be doing everything in their power to find out what was wrong, but since I was a female, they passed me off to her, must be womanly problems!

So here I am now.  Deciding, should I call or wait it out? Once I get to sleep, I am fine, I obviously wake up in the morning!  But…

July 19, 2006

Second Day Update!

Posted in Doritos, family support, Food, thyroid, Updates at 12:37 pm by way2much

So far I am doing decently, but it is just the second day of the rest of my life!

I just finished a long conversation with my mom and I realized that my husband never compliments me. On the other hand, he never puts me down either. Don’t get me wrong he does mention that I can do without the food I put in my mouth. He will say something like, “You are only eating that because someone else is” or “You are just eating that because it is here” or “You just have no will power, do you?” He never says it to be degrading, but the mere fact that he points these things out is frustrating to me. But to be honest, I guess I get more upset because the truth hurts. I deny it and tell him he is an ass,  but deep down I know it to be true. Except for Doritos.  I will travel to the ends of the Earth just for a bag of Doritos. But the other things I eat, I consume just because someone else is and they make it look so good!

So I have to be conscious of what I am doing and not grab at food just because I am at a party or meeting or socializing at the pool and everyone else is indulging. I need to work on my will-power.  That is where I struggle. 

So far today I only had a slice of ham and a slice of Swiss cheese rolled up.  I was making my daughter lunch and I had nothing to eat all day – since I was on phone with my mother for a few hours. (These conversations happen sometimes!) Not sure how I will post my meals, whether I should update as the day goes on or save to post it at night. But I do need to document everything. My mother still insists I have a thyroid problem.  (I shrug – who knows).