OK – the other day I was weighing myself – because that is what I do!

It was Saturday morning – I just got up so I had no contacts in my eyes. I stepped on the scale. HMM – I thought to myself. And I stepped off and then on again.

I took my shower, put my contacts on, then stepped on the scale. Hmphh – I again think.

I put my clothes on then step on the scale.

“Why the hell are you weighing yourself so many times this morning” comes the voice from the bed.

“Because”, I reply to my husband, “it registers a loss and I just wanted to make sure I saw it correctly!”

So woo-hoo – it is only ONE pound – but a loss is a loss!

Actually it reads 174 – so altogether it is 6 pounds in 10 weeks! or 4 pounds this week OR 1 pound in 6 weeks (remember my problem stalemating and then gaining!)

So I am happy – guess the walking is working. And my face looks thinner too, even though my mother declared that I have fat arms in front of the whole family the other day! Thanks mom! I am surprised my blood pressure was so low!

So far I am doing decently, but it is just the second day of the rest of my life!

I just finished a long conversation with my mom and I realized that my husband never compliments me. On the other hand, he never puts me down either. Don’t get me wrong he does mention that I can do without the food I put in my mouth. He will say something like, “You are only eating that because someone else is” or “You are just eating that because it is here” or “You just have no will power, do you?” He never says it to be degrading, but the mere fact that he points these things out is frustrating to me. But to be honest, I guess I get more upset because the truth hurts. I deny it and tell him he is an ass,  but deep down I know it to be true. Except for Doritos.  I will travel to the ends of the Earth just for a bag of Doritos. But the other things I eat, I consume just because someone else is and they make it look so good!

So I have to be conscious of what I am doing and not grab at food just because I am at a party or meeting or socializing at the pool and everyone else is indulging. I need to work on my will-power.  That is where I struggle. 

So far today I only had a slice of ham and a slice of Swiss cheese rolled up.  I was making my daughter lunch and I had nothing to eat all day – since I was on phone with my mother for a few hours. (These conversations happen sometimes!) Not sure how I will post my meals, whether I should update as the day goes on or save to post it at night. But I do need to document everything. My mother still insists I have a thyroid problem.  (I shrug – who knows).